||[Jan. 18th, 2008|03:26 pm]
well finally starting to feel better. ive been sick for over a month and a half. i had gastrintinitus (spelt wrong) then i had a horable throat infection. so any way doctors hospitals walk in clinics pharmacy... u name it.... catscans, ultrasounds.. i.v.'s over... im over being sick im gonna fight for my servival. im finally keeping food down. so thats good. they gave me a shot in the ass. 48 hours later feelin pretty good besides the fact that my dr. took me off of my geodon. so now im anxious, irratable, scared.
i talked to josh 2 days ago havent heard from him in a long long time. he seems to be doing fine. although all i did while on the phone with him is complain about how i feel as though im dying and wasting away. so any way he keeped the conversation short, and let me go. havent heard from him since. seems to me like i push everyone away. ok so i do. i need to fix that.
my car is in the shop once again hopefully nothing major. i was leaking oil, althouth i just put a new engine in it. i hate how expensive every thing is getting. and me with my $56 in food stamps and $600 in disability i dont know how id survive if we were to run into a resession witch is very likely. and we just gave 36billion or something to the iraq government. what about us americans? what the fuck i hate politics it just depresses the shit out of me. especially because i lost my job at converse. damn fuck shit!!!!!
im missing my friends. i feel rather lonely a lot of the times. heather called witch cheered me up for a few minutes. no one ever calls me besides my dad and john.
i hung up on my uncle the other day. he wanted pictures of my pearcings. (hood, tits...... what ever else) then he started talking politics. hes morman; dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb! i hate that he never calles. but thats good because i could give a shit less. he is a pervert.
john should be home around 5/5:30